Shalom.

What up.
New blog alert.
I am a thorough fan of the world race blogsite...
but turns out I am no longer a current world racer
so I have graduate over to a more independent blog. 
If you want to check those out do it here: ruthwilson.theworldrace.org.
I have recently returned home from the most 
psychotic year of my life.
11 countries in 11 months.
I was wrecked... smashed... then put back together.
Now I am back in the psycho real world of America
and I am yet again wrecked.
This place is not at all the way I thought I left it.
It is one of the most heavy places earth.
The worst part about is that it's thoroughly comfortable.
I daily get distracted and water down my pursuit of the one who
spoke me into being. 


Swaziland, Africa, is the country I plan on growing old in.
I have fought the Lord up and down day and night
begging Him to send me somewhere more appealing...
Somewhere less heartbreaking. 
Somewhere with more hope. 
Nope.
He has given me dream after dream
vision after vision
confirmation after confirmation
that Swaziland is where He wants me.
And obviously He knows best.
Swazi is my next step in life.
I am currently finishing up school this semester then I will dive face first
into that dream.
I will blow you up later what those visions have looked like. 
All I know is that they are children heading up households.
yes, that means babies taking care of babies.
AIDS has taken out the middle generation.
There are ancient people and young people.
I feel called to basically every need there.
Babies. Street kids. Grandmas. 
Ultimately raising up a generation that will change the entire
country of Swaziland 
and I have faith that in that change...
The Hope of Africa will be shifted and the whole continent will
Fall on their faces at the subtle whisper of the name of Jesus. 
I know it'll happen..
I just have to intercede and do everything in my power 
while I am still over here in the lonestar state.
I have to prepare Spiritually or I will crash and burn.
I know HE will follow through with the visions he has engraved on my soul though..
I cannot even wait to see what happens. 


Overall I'm just shocked that the Lord has chosen ME.
Legit blows my mind.
I have not pursued him ever until this past year...
When he yanked me out of my shit and put me on solid ground.
He washed me off and said "You're mine follow me"
and I try my hardest to do so daily.
What sucks is that every single day I find myself
subtly spitting on His grace
and I fall on my face and attempt to "make him love me again" 
and he says get over yourself I love you regardless.
Crazy how freaking amazing He is.
I'm in love.


So, welcome to my blog.
Forgive my raw language and feelings.
oh and lack of grammar use.
Love.